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Fruity Swimming Eyes

Where do I begin, to tell a story of a how great a life can be.. where do I start? ..Sorry to tamper with Shirley Bassey, but there really ought to be more songs in reference to place as opposed to people. Am I riiiiight or whaaaat? 😀

Antsy and nauseated. I know, I know, it’s excitement, nervousness. But have you ever been a little ill for a while, so much so that you become accepting of it and adopt that as your new ‘normal’? I can’t tell what it is.

Miranda and I had a day trip to Riyadh yesterday; the other aircraft has gone to London for like 11 days or something. I’m stressed about finding somewhere to live, and about packing. I can’t believe I have to pack my life again. From an outside standpoint I probably seem dramatic. But after previous experience (awful time in Singapore trying to find a flat/losing really personal stuff in Abu Dhabi) I can’t help but be that way.

I want to purge myself of like, all my clothes and just start over almost, rather than put any of it into suitcases. Jacqueline retracted her offer (god?!). Monique, Ann, and Nourhan all said I could stay with them. But none of them quite work, all for different reasons. I’ve already said (to my new company) my ‘base’ is going to be Dubai, at least for time being, so there I’ll go.

Tomorrow we’re going empty and staying overnight in Riyadh, then flying to Beirut with 12pax, and I can be dropped off. The last I heard there’s a Greek girl who will be there to fly back with them. As I, I get off the flight and *bam* there’s someone to take my place. Hehe.

Two people from management have now told me, genuinely, that I’m welcome back here to come and work again if I want. It really means a lot! A backup you know, if for some reason a whole lotta shit hits a whole lotts fans. 🙂

There are listings in Berlin for bright, clean studio flats, for €500 or less. Dang! I have this hyperventilating image of how it must be there, boxed from all sides with Germans and supertrooper electronica. I could just die. This daydream of: me + lofty little European cubbyhole = my eyes swim and my head is all fruity.

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Quicksilver

Boston’s a dollop of hills in a spoonful of marshes. […]

The hills of Boston are skirted by endless flat marshes that fade, slow as twilight, into Harbor or River, providing blank empty planes on which men with ropes and rulers can construct whatever strange curves they phant’sy.

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Yesterday was so one of those days! In where you couldn’t sleep before the flight – already exhausted on pickup, before you’ve even arrived at the airport or sat through briefing. I spent the whole afternoon in Tango-Echo, waiting for a major technical issue to be resolved (something to do with the actual electrical flight controls). We boarded as normal, sat on ground with the pax for around an hour.. pax disembarked to board another aircraft, went by immigration, crew control sent 4 of the 15 crew to airport standby, other flights or home… then the rest of us were sent back to the same aircraft to pretty much standby in case they managed to fix the problem. After 6pm crew control called us again and sent everyone home, I don’t think I’ve ever been so relieved – was half-asleep on a chair and was wondering how I was going to operate a Jeddah and back!

Today I feel comparitively off the roof! Renergised. A decent night’s sleep is  multiple somersaults and happy magic tricks and fields of flowers. The difference in my face is nothing short of astounding – I’ve never met anyone else in where their fatigue features on their mug with that much fervor. It’s the weekend, but there’s a potential snag – a Sheikh (a former Interior Minister) died yesterday, so 3 days of official mourning has been declared. Still unsure if this means music at all the bars and clubs will be totally cut off completely, tonight only, or tomorrow only. 😦

Next month is going to be so chilled! Basically all I have only leave, and a Singapore-Brisbane! Microwavable relaxation right there.

The rope clutches a disk of New England sky.

I was talking to a girl about accommodation possibilities etc and she told me many crew are living in Dubai now. It’s surprisingly pretty affordable. The three main areas are apparently JLT or Jumeriah Lake Towers (where Basel is living), the Marina, or Discovery Gardens. Right after she told me that I saw a notice at the briefing area for shared apartments at JLT, full furnished and all-inclusive of utilities, internet etc. 4800aed per month. I don’t want to be just talking about it anymore, I want to make it fucking happen! Relocating seems more and more of a conceivable idea.

For my leave I need to be getting into this IATA course, and learn to drive. I get an awesomely shitty second-hand car and become comfortable with the idea of driving to the airport, and then find a place. Abu Dhabi is 40mins from the airport; Dubai is around an hour. For the potential leap in quality of life, 20 extra minutes on commute time is a small price to pay, no? 🙂

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Humble and Shy climbed out the window on bedsheets tied together. Passive just jumped the two floors. Tragically, Docile died on the way down. I am aiming to become full of it. After observing other people I’ve come to realize that it’s acceptable. Even revered. And life’s short (so I hear) so why waste time on niceities.

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Finished World Without End. Wept a little after the last page and hugged the book. Just started Quicksilver by Neal Stephenson. Cried on the first page. At the risk of sounding toss-ish, when I get into novels like these it really throws me into a tumble and spin. Books rock my rocks. I genuinely pity the fuck out of people who don’t really read anything. I was living in 1327 England yesterday; today I’m in 1713 America. Like I want to stalk writers and do something filthy with them, like a groupy following a rock band. Filthy as sucking out their brains and eating them in a munching of their consciousness. Or a blowjob. OK, OK, fine. Probably not either of those, but definetely a hello and a signed copy. 😛 Morbidly jealous of a fictional character with the ability to visualize spatial complexities (an architect). Would I function more to my liking if I was born a man..?

Words are down and there they are – black, white, accessible. One-way conversation. On paper it sticks. How I’m grateful.

He hadn’t really known what to expect of America. But people here seem to do things — hangings included — with a blunt, blank efficiency that’s admirable and disappointing at the same time. Like jumping fish, they go about difficult matters with bloodless ease. As if they were all born knowing things that other people must absorb, along with faery-tales and superstitions, from their families and villages. Maybe it is because most of them came over on ships.

Quicksilver is a substantially more complex read than World Without End, as in, I need a dictionary on my pillow! But what satisfaction, full of words like “doppelgänger” and “mephitic”, worlds in such perfect context, and words I’d forgetton existed…

He goes down to where the long wharf grips the shore. Among fine stone sea-merchants’ houses, there is a brick-red door with a bunch of grapes dangling above it. Enoch goes through that door and finds himself in a good tavern. Men with swords and expensive clothes turn round to look at him. Slavers, merchants of rum and molasses and tea and tobacco, and captains of the ships that carry those things. It could be any place in the world, for the same tavern is in London, Cadiz, Smyrna, and Manila, and the same men are in it. None of them cares, supposing they even know, that witches are being hanged five minutes’ walk away. He is much more comfortable in here than out there; but he has not come to be comfortable.

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